If some one tells you
“the timing isn’t right”
kindly tell them
to shove it up their ass
this person does not love you
if some one is waiting
for some internal alarm clock
to go off and alert them
to the matter of proper fucking timing
they will be waiting forever
and in turn so will you.
life is too messy for such shallow dreams
“later” never really comes and
nothing really ever changes
the scenery might be different
maybe you’ll have stopped curling your hair
but no matter how many pages
from the calendar have fallen
no matter how much weight
you have lost, or acquired
no matter what changes on the outside
deep down you will still be a silly girl,
who talks too loud
who holds too much hope
far too close to her heart
who is still waiting on some boy,
full of empty promises
to love you “later”
samonilla 
This is beautiful, and so wise. The last half really resonates with me. It reminds me of when we swam and first starting being seriously interested in boys – epitome of silly girls who talk too loud.
the dictionary definition of it! i cannot wait to see you i will bring my journals and binders and we can pour over poetry together.
with wine, at the beach!